So, we’re having a baby. Those of you who follow me on social media may already be aware of this. It’s all public at this point. Our due date (May 3rd!) is fast approaching, and he’ll be here before we know it.
It’s a boy. I still can’t quite wrap my mind around the fact that a real baby boy is about to come into our lives. I know intellectually that this is going to change everything, but it’s hard to connect with it in my gut. It still feels unreal.
I don’t want to make this whole thing even more theoretical by trying to write a thoughtful blog post about it. Fatherhood is probably one of the most theologized concepts out there, being one of our main metaphors for God, and all. But I’m not interested in going there. Becoming a father myself is almost unimaginable for me right now, two months out; I don’t want to further distance myself by withdrawing into theory.
Still, I thought I should say something. You know, cause we’re friends. A lot of my deepest reflection happens in this dialogue I have with you, the readers of this blog. I want to bring this big change in my life into our conversation. I want to let you know that this is real. It’s personal. It’s scary, and I don’t know what’s going to happen. All the parents out there tell me it’s going to be alright. It’s going to be great!
And I know you’re right. I know it in that same, intellectual way that I know I’m going to be a father soon. But I just can’t quite imagine it yet.
Thanks for listening. I hope you’ll pray for me and Faith, and our families, as the due date gets closer and we try to wrap our minds around what this huge, joyous change is going to mean for our life together.